i've had a friend sort of recently.. be shunned away from being herself? i guess? i'm not sure. it's kind of confusing and there's been a lot of drama but whatever. it's been making me think recently.

we're not really friends anymore. sadly, we've parted ways and have started our lives anew! yippee. /sar

we were the weird kids together. i mean we were literally so close we were the ones people thought were gay for eachother throughout middle school. we loved hamilton and theater and art and voltron and.. idk. tumblr kids but not from tumblr. that sort of vibe. it was awful. when we got into high school some things changed around which was fine, but they really started to get into about what other people think. this was a big struggle for me, since, while we had always been friendly with other people in our class and the surrounding, we just never really cared to stop and think about what was running through their heads when they saw us.

we both had some difficult childhoods that sort of separated us from our parents. in this new turn of events, however, they started leaning more and more towards what their mom thought. which was fine. i'm not really one to diss on getting back on the mom train. it's just when people (not just in this situation) start caring so much about what other people think and feel so much that that person feels the need to change themselves.. it jarrs me. i love being weird. i love being cringe and gross and doing things for the love of it, rather than letting other people dictate what i should and shouldn't love or how i should live or what i should do. i feel like that's exhausting and a waste of my time.

i feel like there's such a push AGAINST being weird and it's awful!! let these people run around with no shoes and friggin. i don't know. sun catchers in their hair or whatever. drink from flowing streams (upstream and do NOT drink stagnant water in nature). educate yourself on WHATEVER you want to know!! life is for the living ! go out there and live. don't ever feel like you shouldn't be apart of something because OTHER PEOPLE try and dictate what you're doing and how you feel. get muddy. put sprinkles on the cake. LIFE IS FOR LIVING!! i'm sorry i'm getting very passionate in this blog post lmao. it's what's on my heart! i'm sick and tired of all of these people who are afraid to be themselves so they change into exactly what they would normally protest against.

obviously i think it should be said that maybe some cultural things should stay. be polite. know that other people are going through things just like you are and deserve your grace. love life and help other people love theirs.